i'm missing you

sometimes when i'm far away from my house, like say the west side or the north side, i feel a sudden rush of anxiety/excitement to go home. going from that distance to my house in the southside makes me feel... i don't know. closer to you. it's so silly, but it provides some momentary comfort (more south=closer to where you are). my heart always beats a little faster when i know you're about to pick up the phone... and whether you're wide awake to say "whasgoooood baby" or i've woken you up and you're making one of your sleepy noises (similar to mine... "muh"), it's like an instant relief. "you have no idea how much i care about you" is possibly the sweetest thing to hear in the world... especially because you're so far away and you/we are capable of that kind of emotion, despite all the distance. it is almost too much to handle sometimes how happy you make me, i wish i could bottle it up and drink it over and over but i'm not sure if they make bottles that big. you are so different for me... and you are so different from them. you will never know what kind of light you bring to my life. :) i will never be the same again, and i've never been so excited to be different. i miss you, but there's no other person i'd want to spend the next 54 days waiting for. i can't wait to see what 2011 has in store for you and i. i got a thaaang for you baby..