i swear i will probably have to write something like this after each departure. both ways. i thought you leaving me was hard, i never thought having to walk away from you would be so difficult.... once i ventured up the escalator and the color of your hoodie disappeared my heart sank to my feet, had it sunk any lower i could've stepped on it but the feeling wouldn't be nearly as bad as how i feel right now.
i. miss. you.
it's crazy how some couples who live together or just relatively close (same city) can be so... unhappy with each other. so undeserving of the other. so unwilling to aim for more just because they are afraid of the hard work and having something that is worth loving in distance. now, this isn't to say that there aren't couples in which the partners live close to each other that aren't absolutely AMAZING - but people need to stop trippin as if all long distance relationships have an expiry date written all over them.
hello, reality check. if your boyfriend who you see every day and pretend to love and have slowly resented more and more after all these years, sleeps in the same exact bed as you every night, you probably have more of an expiry date than me and mine ever will.
which we don't. but that is besides the point.
i have major ADD when i'm sad, if that isn't already apparent :(
i will miss being held first thing in the morning before even speaking words. i will miss slow kisses, fast kisses, stupid kisses, opportunity kisses. i will miss telling you "come here" every single day. i will miss your...... singing, if you can call it that, in the car. i will miss kisses at the red lights (and forcing you to kiss me while driving :)). i will miss laying in bed with no regard for the day or the world, just being in love. and i will especially miss hearing you say all the words i love to hear at any time of the day...
i miss you so much it hurts, but i know that hurt means something. i know nothing could hurt more than having to go without this, and really, i wouldn't trade you, or us, for anything.
