you're not the person that texts them randomly during the day anymore. you're no longer the person that saved that text message. and you sure aren't the person who's been saving up for that 3rd year anniversary surprise because... well there's no third year anniversary anymore.
your fingers don't automatically dial his number when something terrible just happened. maybe they're dialing someone else's number now. maybe you just stopped leaning on the support of others overall. you're no longer that person that relies on him to be your rock.
it's not like due to the break-up... you don't care about that person anymore... you're just.. a different person without them. and you're a different person with him. and the him after that. and every "him" before.
don't assume i don't care, because i do. i just don't think it's fair to me or you to tell you all the time that i still care because what... what good is that going to do? it's going to put us back in reverse and that's the last thing we need. i'm friends with all of my exes who meant something to me... because i won't front, y'all still do. i wish you the best of the best and that you find love and happiness somewhere and at some time. even if it wasn't with me, even if we didn't make it work, i would have never gotten at you if i didn't care about you.
in fact, i wouldn't have went as far as being your girlfriend, if i didn't care about you a lot. so, don't ever wonder if i don't care. i do. i'm just... different.
